All of me, you take now, like criminals and shakedowns

[assassinwithahairpin]

It had been a hard past few days, far from anywhere. They were in Colorado now, some mining town that made it a little easier for Billy to blend in because of the number of Chinese workers for the mine and the railroad. They'd decided to stay for a few days, long enough for the horses to get a good rest, and to have a bed under them for longer than a moment.

Their room at the hotel was relatively large. There was a tub--they'd both used it--and a balcony. They'd smoked. Billy had gotten them marijuana and opium this time, to roll with his tobacco, carefully marking the cigarettes with which was which. Tonight, it had been opium, and Billy felt a lovely, warm haze in him; half the smoke, half the gin they'd been drinking since dinner.

He was laying on the bed, watching Goodnight, when it struck him. For all the world, he didn't know why it had taken him quite so long. But looking at Goodnight, out of his jacket and waistcoat and with his sleeves turned up to show strong forearms, Billy was suddenly keenly aware that he could spend the rest of his life with this man.

He smiled softly at the thought.

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[goodnight_robicheaux]

Goodnight had been trying to pick up little bits of Korean, but it was difficult when Billy spoke it so rarely. It felt like a treat to hear it. The sound of the words in Billy's voice made him smile and he turned his head, lips brushing Billy's brow.

"What's that?" he asked softly, wanting to know. He always wanted to know if it had something to do with Billy.

[assassinwithahairpin]

Billy just shook his head, though it was maybe more of a nuzzle. What the words meant didn't really matter. Billy was sure he could say just about anything, and in that tone, they would mean the same thing. It was the tone, the love in his voice, and not the words themselves, that meant the most just then.

He hummed, a bit tunelessly, sort of along wit the music playing from the piano downstairs. They swayed together gently, hands clasped, Goodnight's arm around Billy's waist, and Billy's arm around Goodnight's neck.

[goodnight_robicheaux]

Goodnight's smile grew when Billy started humming. He hadn't thought this could get better. He had a bare memory of hearing it before, but he couldn't place it. "You should sing more, cher," he murmured, not wanting to break the moment. He wanted to stay here as long as he could.

[assassinwithahairpin]

Billy laughed, smiling brightly. "Oh, no. No. I don't know any songs in English, anyway. And I'm not singing Korean...oh. What's the--the word?"

Billy lifted his hand and flapped it a little, eyes distant as he tried to come up with the word. "That sailors sing. Shimmy or...Shiny..."

[goodnight_robicheaux]

Goodnight chuckled. "A shanty," he answered. "I wouldn't know the difference, would I?" He smiled and twirled them a bit, moving quickly for just a moment before falling back into that sweet, slow sway.

[assassinwithahairpin]

"Shanty, yes," Billy said, agreeably, though it was entirely possible that Goodnight was just making up a word to tease him. He was about to say something, but then Goodnight pulled him into that spin, and Billy laughed.

When they came back to neutral, he pressed his nose into Goodnight's throat. Everything was tight and warm in his chest. He found himself whispering it again, around kissing, "Nae salang," over and over.

[goodnight_robicheaux]

Goodnight felt like he might burst as sweet nothings and kisses brushed over his skin. He turned his head, reached up to cradle Billy's face so he could anchor him for a kiss. He needed to kiss him, needed this man any way he could have him. At some point they had stopped moving but it still felt like Goodnight's world was spinning and Billy was the still center of it all. "I love you," he murmured against his mouth.

[assassinwithahairpin]

There was no hesitation in the way Goodnight confessed that, no worried trepidation like when he had knelt at Billy's feet and confessed with his fingers on the button of his shirt. And, like that, there was no hesitation in Billy either. He slipped his hands so that he could cup Goodnight's cheeks and kiss him sweetly. "I love you, too."

[goodnight_robicheaux]

Hearing Billy say it, the ease with which they shared it now, made him warm all over. His thumb brushed along Billy's jaw and he just looked at him, drinking him in. "I never want to be without you."

[assassinwithahairpin]

Billy let out a breathless bit of a laugh, brushing his thumbs over Goodnight's cheekbones, kissing him again, and again, sweet and chaste. "Oh, good," he murmured. Which was nonsensical, but he meant it. "I--yes. Yes, exactly."

[goodnight_robicheaux]

"You're out of your mind, aren't you?" he teased. Goodnight kissed him with another smile, and before long he was moving them again but it was less a dance and more a slow trip back toward the bed. Seemed like an entirely safe place to be.

[assassinwithahairpin]

"Be quiet," Billy said with a laugh and an easy smile. They swayed back toward the bed, where they'd started, and Billy was more than happy to go. One of his hands slid down Goodnight's front slowly, feeling out the shape of him under his clothing.

[goodnight_robicheaux]

"Oh now I need to be quiet because I'm right." Goodnight grinned and lightly bumped their foreheads together as Billy's hands wandered. "But you'll let me ramble on and on if I'm not saying anything."

[assassinwithahairpin]

"Yes," Billy said, nodding a little bit but not wanting to dislodge Goodnight's forehead from his, "because I don't listen to you when you ramble about nothing."

[goodnight_robicheaux]

"You little shit," he laughed and shoved Billy onto the bed. Goodnight followed after him, climbing onto the bed to catch Billy in an almost apologetic kiss. "Not a word of it, huh?"

[assassinwithahairpin]

Billy laughed and tumbled back easily. When Goodnight came after him, he pulled his shirt out of his slacks, slowly starting to unbutton it. "Not a word of it," he said, but the smile said he was lying. Goodnight's voice was so often a balm, a consistency that Billy could rely on. He'd listen to him speak himself hoarse, and pick up the slack.

[goodnight_robicheaux]

"Good thing you're not much of a talker," he teased, grinning against Billy's skin as he trailed kisses down his neck. "I couldn't handle the competition." He tugged Billy's shirt up, pushed his hands beneath it to feel his skin, all the familiar lines. God he loved him

[assassinwithahairpin]

"You talk enough for the both of us, that's for sure," Billy said, laughing. He hummed, vaguely, tilting his head back to expose his throat while he kept going with Goodnight's buttons. It was easy to arch toward Goodnight's touch, to slot himself against one of Goodnight's thighs and rub just a little.

[goodnight_robicheaux]

"So hurtful, Billy Rocks." There was a smile in Goodnight's voice.

One hand smoothed down Billy's side to his thigh, holding him as Billy rocked up against him, encouraging. God yes. He rutted against him, bit along Billy's neck. He left little red marks, most of which would fade or stay hidden by clothes.

[assassinwithahairpin]

They pressed up against each other, rocked and rutted despite still wearing most of their clothing. Billy sighed and arched his neck, exposing himself to those little bites as he plunged his fingers into Goodnight's hair an held onto him. Everything felt alive under his skin, in the best kind of way.

"Goody," he breathed.

[goodnight_robicheaux]

Goodnight was not about to let something like being dressed keep him from enjoying Billy. "I'm right here," he murmured, pushing Billy's shirt higher. Alright, maybe that needed to come off. He focused on getting buttons undone, despite his urge to rip it open.

[assassinwithahairpin]

Billy laughed a little at Goodnight's muted urgency. It felt good to be wanted so much. Even with their confessions, professions, breathed out between them, Billy marveled at that, at being wanted, not for the novelty of his existence, but because Goodnight had come to know him and had decided he was worth this.

He kissed him, especially his earlobe and the hook of his jaw, and was thoroughly unhelpful in getting either of them undressed.

[goodnight_robicheaux]

Every touch of Billy's lips was a distraction and Goodnight fumbled more than once with buttons. When they were finally undone he pushed Billy's shirt open, fingers spread to touch as much of him as he could as his hands slid up Billy's sides. Goodnight still marveled that this man stayed with him, broken as he was. Billy stayed, loved him, wanted him, despite everything. Goodnight lifted his head just enough to catch Billy in a full kiss, stopping his teasing at least for a moment.

[assassinwithahairpin]

Billy's mouth was curved into a contented smile, and it stayed firmly in place as Goodnight came close and kissed him. He shuffled up the bed, just a little, drew Goodnight close to him, and then stripped off his shirt entirely and started in on Goodnight's.

[goodnight_robicheaux]

Goodnight offered no help, far too interested in sucking a bruise onto Billy's neck. It was low enough that his shirt would cover it, but he wanted to leave a little mark. He'd been here; they had been together. Once his shirt was open he had the decency to shrug out of it, helping that much.